I can’t believe it’s April already. My birthday is in a little over a month and I really don’t want to start another new “year” overweight and unhappy with myself. It’s time to get back on track. I’ve gained some weight in the past few weeks and I’m feeling pretty gross. Time to start working out again and watching closely what I eat.
Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m on the verge of a nervous breakdown. The stress and pressure of college and not having any money and no banks approving my student loans and not knowing if I want to stay in my 2.5 year long relationship anymore and not being able to afford to break up even if I wanted too and not having anyone to vent too…… Is all adding up. I don’t know how much more I can take. I feel like I’m drowning and I’m nowhere near reaching the point where I can save myself. Help :(
I took some progress photos yesterday to compare to the pics I took at 165lbs. I was worried there was no change but there is definite visible progress!! More so in the stomach and waist then anywhere else but I’m happy! I’ll post them when I lose another 20lbs so I have a better “during” photo. Even if you’re not where you want to be, take progress pics along the way to remind yourself where you started.
I’ve lost 6 pounds in the past two weeks without even trying, gotta love that! I really don’t know how this happened, because I’ve even had some junk food days, but I’m not complaining! I’m considering myself lucky for this weight loss and it’s motivated me to put forth an effort now. I’m only 1.8lbs away from my lowest weight and I plan to get there and surpass it this week. I honestly cannot remember the last time I was in the 140’s… it was definitely before I was 18 and I’m 24 now. So excited and feeling really good!! I can do this!!!
If you scroll through my blog you may think that I’m new to this community, because there aren’t many posts and they don’t date back very long. I actually created my tumblr several years ago, but at the time I was suffering from an eating disorder so all of my posts were negatively influenced and destructive.
Eventually I moved past my unhealthy thinking, but I was scared to try and lose weight again in fear that my old habits would return. In any case, I’m not done my weight loss journey yet and I’m only about half way to where I want to be. I’ve realized recently that I can’t continue living half-satisfied with myself and hating my body. I’ve stopped following the pro-eating disorder blogs and instead I’m following fit and strong minded girls who promote losing weight the healthy way. After scanning the newly amped version of my dashboard for a couple of months, I think I’m ready to get back on the wagon and make weight loss a priority again.
I’m 5’4.5 and my highest weight is 195lbs. I’m currently 155lbs and my goal is to be somewhere in the 120lbs range, depending on how things look around there. I want to be thin but also lean, strong, and toned!!! A completely new vision for myself that I’m incredibly excited to conquer!!!
Found this great squat challenge with multiple different moves to target all the muscles involved in developing that sexy booty!!! Starting this today!! :)